they're just too perfect.

Time waits for no man.

I love this phrase when i first time heard it. It's from meredith's script, grey's anatomy series.
i just made 2 sentences for this post, but im struggling to make it in good english. i dunno, maybe im too self-conscious bout my bad english. i want to improve it, but i dunno how. im asking 4 help. Tolong.

i'm still haunted by my own life history. when i was 7, i didn't even noe how to pronounce 'the'. i pronounced it as te-he or te. Can u imagine how bad my english was? That's only 'the' part. Just imagine urself how i pronounced 'elephant' or apple' words.

when i was in standard 5, i never get an A for my english test. I failed half of my english papers. How pathetic i am. i prefered arabic language 3 times more than english. I still remember my english teacher, miss pusparani. in front of all my classmates, miss puspa asked me to differentiate the pronunciation of 'sixty' and 'sixteen'. im not dat stupid, but that's how people judge my english. from 1 to 10 scales, maybe they gave me only 2.5.

until now, when my friends are using bombastic vocabs in their posts or writings, i still struggle to get my grammar correct, n still conscious bout my sentences arrangement. i dunno, i've done many ways to makesure my english improve constantly, but it seems like i failed to achieve dat. when i got good result in my SPM, i really hope dat i can further my studies in an english-speaking country, so i cn be as good as my other english sifu. at the end of the day, i stuck in here, indonesia, a country that pronounce 'protein' as pro-te-in. How do you expect i cn improve my english in such country? i dunno. i hope there's no indonesian read this post, it sounds like an insultation.

i really2 envy with anna's, ateqs and her geng's blog. their posts just too perfect. for aijud's blog, i dun even understand the post bcos it's too high standard. i cn't adapt with his standard, but still, im soo jealous with them. i wanna be as good as them. but how?

is it too late?